Wednesday, April 24, 2013

I Could Be Poetic

I stare at the stars wondering
Will they suddenly crash upon me
Leaving me in a mass of burning rubble

Will I feel the scorch of the earth beneath me
Heating, burning, suffocating me
every sharp intake of breath
every shallow inhalation

But this is what you would expect if I were poetic

I could describe my pain in a million words
Describe my love in a billion
Then describe my hopes in a trillion more

But that were only if I wanted to be poetic

I could elongate the falling of these stars
Elongate their impact
Elongate their passage through the atmosphere
With only one target
me

I could tell you the story of the ruckuss they caused
How I heard them before I felt their scorching heat
Before their fire flakes touched my skin
Each leaving a different engraving
That would never disappear

But I’m not poetic

I can’t drag out every emotion
When I think love
I only say love

I don’t say I feel as if my heart has been put on ice
Frozen yet still trying to beat through the cold
Forming cracks as it tries to survive
Not caring if a single crack becomes an array
Because in truth it is just trying to beat for you

It is fighting so hard to just be a centimeter
A millimeter
Hell even a micrometer closer to you
Even if it shatters in the process

But that is how I would describe love
if I were poetic

But I’m not poetic

If I want to say hate
I say hate
I may switch it up and say despise

I don’t say that I see your image and something in me begins to twist
Deform
Grow in a twisted manner
That not even I can control

It grows beyond me
Reaching beyond my conscious mind
Doing everything it can
Out of the subconscious hope
That you will feel one tingle of the pain you have caused me

But that is how I would describe hate if I were poetic
But by now I think you all get it
I’m not poetic

When those stars hit me I can’t describe it
I can’t say that I stared at them
Hoping they did not miss their target
Hoping their sound was as great as their force
Hoping they would knock me so far down
that every feeling would be left behind me

But as I’m sure you all know
I’m not poetic

I say things in simple terms
Layman terms
Terms everyone knows
But no one truly understand
Not because they are hard
But because they are general

I do this because this is all I can do
I just wanted you to know what I would say
If I could be poetic