Reasons

My heart feels like it's boiling
I've tried to convince it to stop
I've tried to explain the reasons
The things against the reasoning my heart works under

But no matter how much I explain
No matter how much I beg
No matter how much I lie
My heart keeps boiling

I sit in front of a mirror staring at my face
I tell my heart that I have many options
That I need not wait for one
But my heart continues to boil

You see my hearts has its reasons
It has just as many reasons as my mind
They are logical and I understand them
But that is the worst part

I understand them so well that it hurts
I cannot deny them
My heart is right and my mind agrees
That is why I can't stop it

If only it was unreasonable
If I could scream with earnest that it is untrue
But lets face it
I can't control this feeling

Maybe my heart needs to boil
Maybe it will all evaporate in the sky
Maybe I will feel completely free then
Free from this feeling

But right now I can't escape
I don't know if I want to escape
But I should escape
If only escape was an option

I guess for now my heart will keep boiling

Falling

I'm falling but i don't know where to
Will I hit the ground as a rotten apple splatters beneath a tree
Will I explode as I hit the ozone layer, fighting to get through

With limitless options of things I can fall into
There is only one thing I am assured of
That I am falling

Where to I do not know
But I can feel the speed of my descent
I can feel the air pressing against my feet

I do not know the distance I will fall
Time has become a mystery I cannot solve
A piece of information I lost long ago

All I understand is that I'm falling