Reasons

My heart feels like it's boiling
I've tried to convince it to stop
I've tried to explain the reasons
The things against the reasoning my heart works under

But no matter how much I explain
No matter how much I beg
No matter how much I lie
My heart keeps boiling

I sit in front of a mirror staring at my face
I tell my heart that I have many options
That I need not wait for one
But my heart continues to boil

You see my hearts has its reasons
It has just as many reasons as my mind
They are logical and I understand them
But that is the worst part

I understand them so well that it hurts
I cannot deny them
My heart is right and my mind agrees
That is why I can't stop it

If only it was unreasonable
If I could scream with earnest that it is untrue
But lets face it
I can't control this feeling

Maybe my heart needs to boil
Maybe it will all evaporate in the sky
Maybe I will feel completely free then
Free from this feeling

But right now I can't escape
I don't know if I want to escape
But I should escape
If only escape was an option

I guess for now my heart will keep boiling

Falling

I'm falling but i don't know where to
Will I hit the ground as a rotten apple splatters beneath a tree
Will I explode as I hit the ozone layer, fighting to get through

With limitless options of things I can fall into
There is only one thing I am assured of
That I am falling

Where to I do not know
But I can feel the speed of my descent
I can feel the air pressing against my feet

I do not know the distance I will fall
Time has become a mystery I cannot solve
A piece of information I lost long ago

All I understand is that I'm falling

A pair

The ball came quickly

It cut through the air

One second he saw it

The next it wasn't there

He swung his bat 

Swift as could be 

The clunk went unheard 

It was a strike indeed

He swung his head low

Chin to the ground

Then turned it slow

Seeing pitchers mound

Stood atop 

A bright ball of glee

Surrounded by friends 

Cheering the win

He lifted his head up 

He looked around

So filled with angst and anger

He did not hear the sound

He did not feel their touch

Or hear the stumping of their feet

Nor the sound of their hands

As one touched down

He couldn't hear or feel it land

In his own misery

He swam around

Too far below 

To even see the ground

See the cheers of his friends

Their screams of good try

The smiles on there face

Lost in his mind

As he waddled home

As tired as could be

The only thing he thought

"Why me?"

"He was not that good

His pitches sucked

I didn't hit them

Because I had to duck"

He turned over
He flopped into his bed
He would never admit
That it was his fought the other team led

Serious

I walk down a road
I don't know where it ends
But how could I pinpoint this
When I don't know where it began

I remember a start
But I can't tell you the place
I can't explain the exact feeling
As I started searching for my place

I guess there was no point
No point that I know
It was like it was alive
My start just began to grow

One day I was walking
To no particular place
I suddenly felt purpose
It was on a random day

One day I thought maybe
The next I thought it possible
By the time I new it was probable
It was definitely so

So I walk down this road
Untraveled for a while
I can tell by the weeds
And missing parts of the ground

I can see the holes
where the road used to be
I saw a plant grow before me
The beginning of a tree

As I count my steps
I look down to see
That something has disappear
The cement beneath me

Someone once had laid it
I guess only this far
I can feel the gravel moving
I can see the dirt from afar

The road has become narrow
It is barely a path
But I must keep traveling
Even if the path will not last

I have to climb now
I can no longer walk
I feel my arms ache
They can only pull me so far

I look beneath me
There is no ground
If my arms gave out now
I would fall straight down

I want to turn back
Go back down
Before the road ended
When I was on solid ground

But turning back would be deadly
I have to see this through
My arms will not give out
That is the only thing they must do

As I pulled myself further
I felt flares of pain
My arms were giving out
Then it began to rain

I could feel the pitter-patter
The drops hit my hands
I felt the same rhythm
When my steps used to hit land

The mountain became slippery
I could feel my loosening grip
This may be the end now
And surely I slipped

I fell fast
I tumbled far
I tried to grab on
But everything was too far

I twisted in the air
I aligned my body right
Before I hit the ground
I would give a good fight

I suddenly saw branch
I quickly grabbed tight
My body swung through the air
As I held on with all my might

I then found a foot hole
A place I could rest
I began to climb
I had passed my first test

The mountain was not as scary
I could survive on my own
I could make my own path
The cement was long gone

I reached the top
Viewing all that was below
I could see where I had been
Though not yet where I would go

I saw a little girl
Following my old path
She would have to climb soon
And my path would not last

I searched for a large stick
I quickly found mud
I cemented it in place
Beneath my fatal flaw

I new that she would fall
Hopefully not as far
I would not stop it
The fall helped me get far

I gave her one last look
Then quickly scurried away
My path I take alone
It will end one day

Death Master

He swoops in at night
Never bothering to knock
He has every key
He can unlock any lock

Sometimes he comes swiftly
Often he takes his time
Everything is on his schedule
Nothing is on mine

Sometimes I scream
I scream for more years
I need more time
Time I'm willing to endear

But when I scream
He does not listen
Even when I beg
I need more time here


But he will not wait
He has no reason to
He says its too late
My time is due

As he grabbed me one night
Despite my plea
And told me the truth
One not just for me

"You are on my time
This is my choice
You are on my schedule
With me you have no voice"

I tried to get away
I twisted in fear
His grip was cold
His stare was clear


"I am taking you now
But I will take them soon
No one can get away
They will come too"

I twisted again
Fist in the air
I hit him hard
He did not care

"This is my time
This is my place
You are all in line
You just didn't know your place"

I stopped my struggle
I could no longer fight
He had swooped me away
And it was within his rights

Stripped Cheeks

Rolling up a gentle hill
Reaching the peak
Rolling down again
Beneath where it started
It has won the race
Before others departed

It kept rolling out the door
It had a purpose
But no one knew what for

What could it be
Why run the race
All it did was leave a wet path
Right down a face

Why was the race started
What was the prize
Does anyone know
Or did he just need to cry

As the race continued
He huddled in his bed
Wishing he could change
What he never did

Unable to make a decision
Concerning what he knew was forbidden

He pulled out his wallet
He found a hidden picture
It was a picture of his last day with her

She had went away
She had flown the coop
She had left shattered
Without knowing that he was too

He rolled on his back
Though what was the point
He had hurt the one he loved
Because of medieval points

He looked at his book
His book of words
Thousands of years of wisdom
He had never heard

He had read them in silence
He thought he had learned well
But those words were meaningless
Because his heart was in hell

He curled in a ball
Holding her picture
Knowing that at least his tears would always be with her

In My Name

I remember the day I gave my all
I offered my friendship
And you took it all
More than what was given
More than I expected

I thought things would be even
I thought you would be fair
But the more I gave
the less you were there

I remember days
Those now long past
Where I accepted the lies
And pretended not to grasp

But then I woke up
And the truth started to fly
I took back what was mine
Then hurled the rest to the sky

But I could not forgive
Because I could not forget
I decided to take away from you
What I could never get

I held my head tall
And thrust my hands out
I took what I deserved
knowing it would be the only apology I got